It hit me today that I haven’t really spoken about my Under Amour What’s Beautiful campaign in awhile that I am participating in as a FitFluential Ambassador. It’s certainly not because I’ve lost interest, or anything of the like. Let me be frank – I’ve been hurting. It’s a combo of DOMS, and something I’m recognizing as falling outside of the “norm” for what I should be feeling (especially today).

When I was first asked to make my goal, I was just acknowledging that I need to take it easier on myself for awhile (I was thinking a week!) because my knee hurt. I promised myself I’d lay off any HIIT workouts, or anything else that got me squatting or lunging. Check! I did that. I didn’t feel 100% better, the week ended I moved on.

I kinda set another goal.

I incorporated the pull up bar into my P90x workouts. Somehow that original goal kinda floated away and my pain issue never fully resolved. I’m wondering today, where the hell did it go?!

If you follow me on instagram, you may have seen this post the other day:

Today I will respect my body. Why is this the hardest part sometimes? #fitfluential #whatsbeautiful #betruetoyou sometimes public declarations are the way to go.

I’m not going to lie, I’m tired. Really tired. My migraines have increased which I was thinking may have been hormonal issues, but now I don’t know. I’ve had a residual headache for at least a week and a half non-stop. I feel out of sorts. My knees/hips/glutes are hurting. And I know, I need a break. If that means taking more than one rest day a week I will take it. No HIIT workouts, no pushing my limits currently. My current “challenge” is just to feel better.

I used to abuse my body by letting myself get to weight and general unheatlhy standing I was in. Guess what, right now, I’m abusing my body. I have not worked this hard to get right back where I started.

I used to be obese. I lost weight. You know what no one ever tells you when you go through something like this? It brings a shitstorm of other phyiscal AND emotional things on you can’t even imagine. This my journey, and it’s not a perfect one.

Disclaimer: I have not been paid for this post, but I am working in tandum with under amour because of my standing as a FitFluential ambassador.