Fat Girl Demons: Those Damn Perspective Pants
Hey all, hope you’re having a great Friday! I’m finding that my Friday’s are leaning themselves towards these posts I’m calling my “Friday Confessions”.
I’m not sure why it seems these posts are falling on Friday’s (obviously other than the name works out cleverly handy). I’m thinking it’s perhaps because generally Thursdays are my rest days – so on those days my mind has more time to process things from the past week. And since I’m not actively exercising on my rest days I think I the endorphins aren’t racing through my body and I get bit more introspective. So after my Thursdays have ended I usually have a post concocting in my brain that I want to address.
So today’s just happens to be those fat girl demons.
I’m a firm believer that step 1 in getting over and “issue” is to 1, acknowledge the issue. Cool, did that one publicly via the aforementioned blog post. Where do I go from there? Well I decided today it’s time to let go of some numbers. To throw them out there for all the world (or um my blog readers) to see. Ya ready?
When I began this journey, I was wearing somewhere around a :
a womens 24w
Oh yeah, I bolded that shit and all. I’m sure by now you’ve all seen what I like to call my “perspective pants”. And if you haven’t here’s some visual reference. Yes, these are a womens 24w.
So you’re wondering what size I wear now. Well, I’m also “letting go of that”. Ya ready?
misses size 4
But honestly, it doesn’t mean much. I can wear 6′s in some brands and all the way down to a size 2 sometimes – but I digress and I’ll save that sizing rant post for another time.
These pants are named such because some days when I forget how far I’ve come, I slip them back on as a reminder. And again, here’s a little diddy I made. Not just for you, but for me too. Print it, pin it, memorize if it helps.
But remember this goes both ways. Even at my heaviest (which I will eventually share, heh) or my current size – I’m still me. My core values and the person that I am does not change no matter what size jeans I happen to fit into on whatever day.