Category Archives: Weight loss
If you don’t follow me on instagram I feel the need to share some sweaty photos with you because I haven’t done that on here in awhile. Since I’ve been a little more free with my workout schedule as of late, Tuesday’s workout was pretty up in the air for me. I didn’t have anything planned, and was going to roll with whatever my body felt like doing that day. Dealing with some personal issues that morning and some agitation left me in the mood for punching shit.
Ok, by shit mean punching and kicking air really, because I workout at home and I got my Les Mills Combat on. It was what I really needed, a good stress reliever and always a kick ass workout. I’m not a heavy sweater, but man these workouts always get me. I also realized how dang sore my upper body was as soon as I started warming up. It’s been awhile since I’ve done these workouts consistantly and yesterday I just felt stronger – like there was more power behind those punches, even if I was punching air.
After that sweatfest, I had to shower and throw myself together real quick to get to the Dr’s office for my annual OB checkup. Oh geez, ladies aren’t those just the highlight of our year eh? It was a little more stressful because my office had switched to a new system for records etc since I had last been there. While the nurse was checking me in and going over my record, she stated “no, this can’t be you – history of obesity? That’s a mistake”.
I assured her that it was accurate, and it was my record.
After which she looked me up and down. A little uncomfortable for me mind you (fat girl demons I suppose). But then she was just very sweet and congratulated me. It’s actually nothing new, I had lost the weight since I had been there last, but I guess this happens when you only see people once a year.
Insert sitting there in paper napkin waiting for my doctor to appear. She looks up my record by date of birth and starts going over my kids births with me. She was reading off my record and showing it to me at the same time when she gets to the portion about me weighing around 280 pounds. She pauses and says, “wait, we have the wrong record this isn’t yours”.
Again. Yes, yes it’s mine.
Insert looking up and down by my doctor and the medical student. And yes, I felt awkward again – but then she tells me that I don’t look like I’ve ever been overweight in my life. Probably one of the nicest things I’ve had someone say to me. Although I’m still not sure why I felt weird about being looked up and down. People aren’t doing it to be rude I know that – just still a little uncomfortable with it.
Also yesterday my daughter also called me “Flat Stanley“. But crap, that’s a whole nother post right there.
Would something like that make you uncomfortable?
Do you like kickboxing or mixed martial arts workouts?
What’s your fav workout that always gets a major sweat on?
I took an online quiz earlier today talking about which side of your brain ‘rules’. Right or Left. I was actually sort of surprised of my personal outcome. Although I consider myself to be a creative type, my brain weighed equally. Of course, I blame that possibly on my slight tendency to be a little OCD. I say that somewhat jokingly because I’m not diagnosed or anything. I guess perhaps anal or uppity may be a better descriptive for myself. But that’s actually not what I wanted to talk about at all.
I may have seemingly “been absent” as of late. If you haven’t noticed – then just ignore that and carry on reading this… I’ve had a lot on my mind (both sides of it according to the above quiz results). I started talking about feeling worn down and generally hurt in January when I opened up about my personal rest + rejuvenate January.
But unfortunately January came and went, and I can’t say I was feeling that much better, or more positive for that matter. This past week marks the most amount of time I’ve taken off of working out since my fitness journey began a few years ago. A lot has been weighing on my mind about where to go from here. Things like:
- What do I want my workouts to look like from now on?
- Do I have any current personal fitness goals I would like to achieve?
- Can I achieve those without putting my body through the ringer like I have in the past?
- Why is finding this balance SO DAMN HARD?!
But with that negative, I believe there also came a little positive. I’ve come to some realizations over the past few months. Some about myself, and about how I want to live my life.
- I am healthier than I have ever been. Despite feeling down lately, I am still a better version of myself.
- I’ve come to realize that I need to address my workouts in the same fashion I have come to address my eating. 80/20 (meaning 80% of what I eat is healthy, the other, not so much). Applying this to my workouts will be a great step for me I think. Not every workout has be a calorie blaster. I do not have to workout everyday.
- I workout now not only because I want to be healthy – but I enjoy it. I will take more time to do workouts that I genuinely enjoy.
I liked this quote. And although some days I may feel defeated – I know for me it’s just part of the process. I have never been really defeated along my journey. Because I would never let myself be. And this is just a new journey for me. A step along the way.
Also I’d normally insert the “what about you?” question here. But sometimes I don’t feel like I need a question. I’m just sharing with you where I’m at, and what I’ve been up to. Hope you’ve been well.
There are a few things I could blog about today. But, I’m actually thinking I will save them for another day. I was having a fat day today. You know one of those crappy days where you just feel yourself thinking….
I feel fat.
I would chalk these up to my fat girl demons, but I dare someone to say they don’t have days when the feel like this. Say you don’t and I’ll call you a liar.
But I decided I wasn’t going to dwell on it today, I had too much to do. OK OK, but I did do a google search for something funny to share with you After all I try to be honest and share my his and lows here. And really, there had to be a funny meme or crappiply photoshopped picture that I was destined to add to my pinterest board right?
I didn’t necessarily find what I was looking for, I was pleasantly surprised when I found this gem below. I was also really glad I could follow the image back to it’s original source.
It’s actually a few “pages” of a comic by C. Mucha, and goes like this:
Fat is not a feeling.
Though it has a lot of emotional friends: Anxiety, sadness, fear, disappointment, doubt, [ and] embarrassment.
We monitor feelings to gauge whether things are… good, ok, [or] bad.
Feeling fat makes us believe something always must change.
“Fat” makes us distrust our own feelings.
“Fat” is a sensation, of monitoring how much space you occupy, then judging it.
We equate judgment with virtue. As long as we are monitoring our bodies, we are being “good”.
Truth: you will never feel better by believing the problem is that your body takes up too much space in this world. Never.
Your body isn’t going anywhere. Your body deserves to take up space.
Your body is a solid mass. “Fat” is a gas. A thought that will take up as much space as you give it.
Hate is not a magic wand that shrinks your thighs.
Buy mental real estate in other things. Don’t give empty lots of your brain over to noxious ideas.
Start by eliminating this phrase from your vocabulary: “I Feel Fat”.
Because fat is not a feeling.
Pretty awesome sauce right? I think the entire thing is awesome, but the part about the thighs made me smile. And so does this:
Suck it fat days! Oh did I mention today was a snow day (again!). Those can suck it too. But I’ll post about that another day.
Fess up. When’s the last time you had a “fat day”.
What do you do to combat them, or other negative self thoughts?
Last month I was honored to be featured as October’s #FitStory. FitStories is an evolution of FitBlog (if you were at all familiar with that). FitStories give the chance for bloggers to share their health and FitStories with other bloggers – or just people working on their own FitStory.
My FitStory is one of over 130+ pounds lost, and a whole new life gained.
My story begins with my own personal “ah-ha” moment. This moment came after I realized I was the pot calling kettle black so to speak. My husband is a Type 2 Diabetic; and after his long list of medications didn’t seem to be helping his diabetes any longer, his doctor began talking to him about the possibility of weight-loss surgery.
I wasn’t for it. In my heart it didn’t seem like the solution. The solution seemed a little simpler to me. He needed to change his habits to become healthier. I felt like if he wasn’t ready to work and establish permanent change, then the problem would still persist.
That’s when I realized I was at the heaviest I had been in my entire life. I had probably packed on something close to 100 pounds over the course of 10 years. Ya know, three kids, life, and eating poorly will do that to you. I was tired all the time, was having problems with my foot, and suddenly felt like a terrible role model for the people that mattered most to me: my family.
That was it for me. Transformation begins with the decision to make a change. I had decided. It was time, and I knew I was in it for the long haul. For my health and for my family, I embarked on what became my journey. I adopted the attitude and personal mantra of “Today I will do what I can.” This applied to exercise, eating healthy, and slowly changing my bad habits.
In a little over two years, I had shed a whole person basically. But other than weight loss,I’ve gained health, strength, and most importantly, the ability to be a role model to my children.
MORE ABOUT AMANDA
Location: Louisville, KY
Occupation: Web + Graphic Designer
What is your current healthy living motto? “Today I will do what I can.”
The point in life life I realized I was unhealthy/overweight and needed to make a positive change was … After my husband’s doctor began pressuring him into exploring the option of weight-loss surgery. I personally disagreed with it, but I realized I couldn’t say anything much more positive about my own health.
My weight-loss story began where … most people began: the dreadmill – dun dun dunnnn! That first “on purpose workout,” as I call it, almost killed me, but it was my start.
The biggest obstacle I had to face and overcome during my journey was … time management. I’m a work-at-home mom with 3 kids, so time management was always my biggest challenge. Workouts couldn’t always happen when I wanted them to. But by dedicating myself, I was able to accomplish my transformation without ever joining a gym. All my workouts to this day continue to be done from home!
Fortunately for me, I’ve never been much of a quitter – and I’m glad to say that this portion of my nature didn’t fall short when I took on the task of changing my health and fitness. That being said, at the beginning of my journey I knew it was just that, a journey, and that it would take time. Keeping in mind that overnight changes were not going to happen always kept me from becoming discouraged with my progress.
The exercise I most enjoy: I really love high-energy things that have roots in kickboxing like Turbo (Turbo Fire, Turbo Jam, Les Mills Combat, etc). I also adore lifting weights, it makes me feel so empowered!
Social media keeps me motivated to stay active and healthy by… how positively people responded to my story. I didn’t share my journey from the start. As I began to share bits of my story, more and more people responded positively to it. The positive response and kind words began to make me realize that someone out there may gain something by the sharing of my own journey.
Advice I’d offer someone struggling with weight-loss, self-confidence or unhealthy eating is… It’s all about your habits. What do you want to change? With that in mind, establish what habits you currently have that are interfering with this goal. Replace your old habits with new ones. Habits don’t change overnight; be persistent and the small things that may seem meaningless at the time add up. Most importantly, don’t give up or underestimate what you’re capable of!
My healthy living style in 5 words: Moderation, dedication and smarter choices.
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Again, it was a honor to asked to be featured. I still can’t believe people want to hear this gal blather about her journey!
What would your healthy living lifestyle 5 words be?